Found this note in my Facebook account..had forgotten about it. SO TRUE

Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 16 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 16 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you.”

1) There is a monster locked inside of me, I keep it well guarded because i am afraid if I let it out at all I will lose control and I will destroy everyone I love
2) I tend to be lukewarm towards most people or things, because when I allow myself to love it is with stalkerish obsessiveness, and If i allow myself to hate… the results would be disastrous.
3) I am extremely self-aware but I keep the things about myself that I am most aware of to myself
4) I love studying and reading people. I can’t wait till I get my psych degree and can do it for money.
5) I can be cruel and heartless, but I mostly play it off as jokes. the truth is…I rarely feel the sting of any of it.
6) I tend to act first and think later.
7) I am impulsive, but so far I have been able to channel most of my impulses into less destructive avenues (like shopping)
8 ) I think I may be becoming a compulsive liar about things that are unimportant. but I am still brutally honest about things that matter.
9) I haven’t cried in weeks. It’s strange. Thank you Zoloft.
10) I am alone right now. I feel panicked, even though I wanted to be alone.
11) I want nothing more than to be understood.
12) I am terrified of anyone figuring me out.
13) I hate competition
14) I wish you were here
15) I never want to grow old.
16) I am a walking contradiction… some people think I am a hypocrite

~ by Aurora Phoenix on May 3, 2009.