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Mixed Diagnoses – How Do You Know?


I have bipolar disorder.  This is the most recent diagnosis.  I don’t completely fit the mold.  As mentioned in a previous post, “I’m bipolar something.” My pdoc just isn’t sure what type yet.

This seems to be becoming a trend with my posts, but I would like to write a list of psychiatric diagnoses (and medications, if applicable) I have received over the past 10 years.  I’ll start from 10 years ago and work my way forward:

Jan 2000:  Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder, Depression

December 2000: Chronic Fatigue Syndrome (I put this dx here because it’s often linked with depressive disorders and comes in to play presently)

July 2004: Post-Partum Depression, Anxiety, Depression(haha)

–[zoloft] D/C’ed after 2 months

January 2006: Depression, Anxiety(situational)

–[Wellbutrin XR]didn’t work

February 2006:

–{Lexapro} D/C’ed after 3 months (too expensive, non-formulary)

July 2007 : Depression, Borderline Personality Disorder

November 2007: Panic Attacks/Anxiety, Depression

–[Lexapro and Ativan] D/C’ed after 5 weeks lexapro made me psychotic/manic,

January 2008: Depression, Panic/Anxiety Attacks

–{Paxil and Ativan}, D/C’d after 3 weeks paxil made me shake too much, I felt sick all the time.

March/April 2008: Personality Disorder, Not Otherwise Specified w/ characteristics of: Borderline, Narcissistic, Obsessive-Compulsive, Avoidant, Histrionic.  Depression. Possible bipolar disorder, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.

October 2008: Depression, Anxiety.

–[zoloft and ativan](stayed on both)

February 2009: Hospitalized for Major Depression.  Diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder.

–[zoloft, lamictal, seroquel, provigil(for CFS)]

March 2009: Bipolar Disorder, Attention Deficit Disorder – Inattentive type

–[zoloft, lamictal, seroquel, adderall] Adderall D/C’ed after 3 months – not effective

June 2009:

–[zoloft, lamictal, seroquel, strattera] strattera D/C’ed after 1 months – not effective

July 2009:

–[zoloft, lamictal, seroquel, ritalin] ritalin D/C’ed after 1 month – not effective

October 2009:

–[Wellbutrin SR, Lamictal, Seroquel] Zoloft now D/C’ed for not treating depression effectively enough even at max dose

January 2009:

–[zoloft, wellbutrin SR, lamictal, seroquel]

So, with a diagnosis of Bipolar Disorder being treated as primary since it is the most recent,  how do you decipher what symptoms or behaviors that don’t “fit the bipolar mold” are just irrelevant, or part of one of the other illnesses that I have been diagnosed with?

I have to finish this later… I’m passing out.

Die, Live Writer, DIE!


F***!!!!!!

I AM EXTREMELY PISSED OFF ANGRY RIGHT NOW. I SPENT THREE AND A HALF HOURS WRITING IN MY BLOG, I HAVE AUTO-SAVE, THE THING CRASHED, BUT WHEN I CAME BACK IT SAID THAT THERE WAS A POST, BUT WHEN I OPEN IT IS IT ONLY THE TITLE AND NO CONTENT.   3 1/2 HOURS OF ME RIPPING APART MY GUTS TO GET IT OUT OF ME AND IT GOT EATEN BY STUPID WINDOWS LIVE WRITER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!   INSTEAD OF FEELING BETTER ABOUT GETTING OLD SHIT GARBAGE OUT I NOW FEEL LIKE I AM IMPLODING.  I CAN’T DO IT AGAIN.  AND THAT F***ING BOULDER IS SITTING ON MY CHEST RIGHT NOW.  THE UNIVERSE HATES ME.  IT’S THAT SIMPLE.

Edit: I used a lot of language in this post because it suited my mood.  I dunno what it is about screaming obscenities when you’re angry, but I am still angry, but more constructively I guess.  More to come.

Two posts in one day? No way!


I have been reading a LOT of blogs in the past few days.  I am finding it quite enlightening.  I am a rambler.. and I kind of feel guilty about that because I have been leaving rambly comments on stranger’s blogs. 

 

If anyone reading this is one of the people who got a long rambling comment from me then I apologize.  I have never been a “facts only” type of person.  I write in a roundabout way, because that’s the way my head works.  I get so distracted with the idea of what I want to say, and I end up just confusing a lot of people who don’t follow my train of thought and can’t make any logical sense of what I am saying.  Even my shortened versions are still much longer than the average person’s average thought/reply/whatever.

Continue reading Two posts in one day? No way!

Online Blogs Are Lame.


I am kind of upset right now.  I took all this time to make my own font.  This is my handwriting.  But then when I go on WordPress, Blogger, LJ… They don’t give you the OPTION to change your font.  Or if it does (blogger) the fonts are the boring Times New Roman, Arial, etc. That have zero personality and quite honestly sometimes make me crazy.  I like to customize.  I feel more comfortable writing how I want to.  What’s the point in spilling my guts to the general public if Continue reading Online Blogs Are Lame.

What the HELL was I thinking? O, right. I wasn’t thinking.


I had a terrible terrible terrible day yesterday.  I didn’t sleep Tuesday night.  I had planned to sleep yesterday while Angelina was at school. Only problem – I got a phone call at 9:30 that she was scratching and couldn’t stop, and she tells me she has a cough and needs to go to the dr.  So, I got in the shower, planning to take her cream to the school and put it on her.  Got a call from David while I was in the shower.  Ang’s teacher had called and said that she thought Angelina was just trying to get out of doing her work.  David’s opinion is that I not go get Ang and take her out of school.  So, I went to the school with the cream.  She didn’t want it.  I told her I wasn’t taking her home and that there wasn’t anything more that I could do for her at home but to put the cream on her.  So, she said ok. Took one little dot and put it on one of her knuckles and said she was ok. Continue reading What the HELL was I thinking? O, right. I wasn’t thinking.

I am expanding.


I have started many different blogs, most with the same content, but have lost some of the people that occasionally pass through and garner something from my musings, even if it is 5 minutes they will never get back.

So, to avoid anyone missing out, I am now using Windows Live Writer and will be cross posting everything across my whole blogosphere.

 

So, If you’re reading this you can find me at the following places:

 

www.rainydayrants.blogspot.com

www.rainydayramblings.wordpress.com

http://rainydayramblings.web.officelive.com

Rainy Day Ramblings on Facebook

http://falloutmommy.livejournal.com/

 

 

You can also e-mail me anytime at: rainydayramblings@att.net

Paralyzed


I hate feeling like this.  Although I’m not ever really very specific on what this is.  This changes from day to day.  Today this is physical.  I am making myself physically ill with so much stress and worry, and I’m not sleeping right.  I either sleep too much at the wrong times, or not at all when I should be.  And for whatever reason, when I feel this way I always seem to be drawn to my budget, I guess hoping that something has changed. Continue reading Paralyzed