Tag Archives: emotions

*restlessness + poor judgement = mania (or so I’ve discovered recently)

When I first started this blog I said I was going to update this (Symptoms I Thought Were Just Me Being Crazy..O… Wait, I Am Crazy) regularly.  It’s been 8 months so I figure now’s a good enough time to start doing that. So here goes: Continue reading *restlessness + poor judgement = mania (or so I’ve discovered recently)

When Will the Underwhelm Overcome the Overwhelm?

I wish that I could be underwhelmed.  I have been bored.  I have been disinterested.  But at my darkest moments I am still overwhelmed.  I become overwhelmed with dark, with black, with sad, with impenetrable fog.  But no underwhelm.

When I am not depressed I am “Blah.”  This is my answer almost every time my psychiatrist asks.  I need therapy.  I need a professional to talk to, to explain to, who might have, if not an answer, some suggestions at  least.  But alas, there is no money to pay the bills, so there definitely is no money to pay a therapist.  This morning while doing the budget I was seriously considering not paying for the psychiatrist and the pills that don’t really seem to be helping. Continue reading When Will the Underwhelm Overcome the Overwhelm?

I’m losing my mind…cont’d

I was doing somewhat better with being irritable all the time and yelling and throwing temper tantrums, but in the past couple of months the psycho has been creeping  back in.  It hits me at weird times.  This past week I was going through the monthly hormonal flux and I have been completely psycho.  I know I have, but I can’t control it.  It isn’t all the time, it just HAPPENS. Continue reading I’m losing my mind…cont’d

I’m tired.

I want to start this post off by saying that I know that there are people who will read this and know that I am talking about them.  I am not trying to start shit.  I am not trying to be mean, or flippant, or whatever.  I just need to vent, and it is meant at people in general and not necessarily anyone specific. So, with that said… Continue reading I’m tired.